Savannah
It is so easy to love you.
We're going on five years now. I still get butterflies when you touch me, when you walk in a room. In the morning, when you're away, I still reach to call you first. In the evening, I still reach for your favorite perfume just hoping you notice (though you always do).
When we sleep, I still face you, I still snuggle against you and tap my finger on your chest to the beat of your heart. Still reach for your hand when we walk down the street. Still feel my heart flutter whenever you call. Lying here... I can remember our first kiss. I recall how surreal it was for you to reach for me the way you did, looking down at me- God you're so tall. The movie way you touched my face and cupped my chin, the Denzel way you stared into my eyes... the hungry way you took my mouth.
Love you, love us together. Love our way together. Our things live together: your clippers next to my curlers, your wave grease next to my spritz. Panties against drawers, oxfords against stilettos, and skin against skin. Love us together.
Lying here list all the reasons I love you. Watching your chest rise and fall, I feel the heat of a million black women before me watching their own men so lovingly. Watching you I see all that there is to be proud of in a men, everything there is to want and need in a man, in watching you I see a man. I see my man.
You influence me. Seeing you break a sweat, I want to break a sweat. I want to run harder and pray harder. I want to be more because you're more. More than I ever asked for. A blessing when tears were what I knew best. I get an ache when you're gone. Get a crease in my forehead. I get a walk about me. Then you come back and you work it right back out of me.
Love you. Love you. Love you because...forgiveness is possible around you. Focus, strength, and wisdom are attainable with you. Because you don't fault me for knowing myself, for honoring myself, for being myself. Because with you there's no apologizing for emotion, for silly, for stumbling. There's only encouragement with you. There's only real with you, truth with you. I love you because its easier to breathe with you.
Lying here with you I take deep breaths. In. Out. In... Out...
Effortless.
its easier to breathe when I'm around you
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